Dear Hubba Bubba,

Dearest Hubba Bubba,

How are you today, hubba? Did you have a good day? U nae punish me today *skips* Skip, Skip to my Lou.. let's do the dosey-doh. And let's play w/Play-doh. Let's play Barber Shop Play-doh. *puts blue play-doh in a Play-doh doll and squeezes* *blue stringy Playdoh hair appears* You can cut HIS hair. Does he need a shave? We nae dat kind of Barber Shop. Kulvara, I can cut hair if only playdoh. You must go to a Barber Shop. Look for the swirly thingamajigs. Blue and Red and White. There is one near me. When u go there, hubba, doan bet on the horses. No OTB if u wanna be w/me.

I use to dislyke glue verra much, hubba. B/C they tell me glue is from horses. *huff* *puff* *blows down your house*

And this little piggy screamed roast beef. And this little piggy ran all the way home.

Do the Humpty.. Do the Humpty dance...

Watch on YouTube

*humpty dances w/Karakul*

~emme

Dearest Kulvara

Dearest Kulvara,

How are you today? I hope you are well. I am interest in you understanding dat I spend so much time trying to figure out my existence and this 'human' experience and this world. I realize that my creator is God, the Father, and that only thru Him are all things possible. I realize that I must do His Will and when I donnae I am subsequently punish all the time.

I spend so much time lost in thought and silent reverie, trying to see if I can change this world and this 'human' experience. I struggle w/Time and death all the time, Kulvara. It upsets me to realize that there is just a finite amount of time in this world with a particular love one, lyke your mother or your father. It bothers me to realize that there are no true guarantees in this world except in Christ and God. Only Christ and God are the guarantees. Because I always wonder why when we arrive in this world we are always crying, are we sad, scare, angry that we were taken from somewhere else and place here for... for whae, Kulvara? Whae is the point of our mad existence.

Supposedly because we are created in God's image and His Children we are indeed nae finite, but infinite and that there are many worlds within worlds that we travel to time and time again. If that is the case, Kulvara, then will we continue to choose each other over and over again. Why is it that when we say 'Hello' we are excited and happy and then soon after angry, upset, and apathetic because innately we realize we must learn how to say goodbye. In the beginning everything is wondrous and new and we're happy and dancing around shouting, 'I love you. Hello, I love you.' And the world responds with, 'Hello, we love you. We love you.' And then as time goes on we only hear our own echoes and then time and memory start to scramble and we must learn how to say goodbye and it all is about 'goodbyes.' Perhaps dat is why I enjoy so much being, 'Fairwells.'

I so waen to make sure that there are no final goodbyes for all of us and that we doan age and that we doan succumb to illness and ephemeral existences so easily die. A heaven on earth, Kulvara. Dat is whae my goal is and whae I spend my existence working on. A Heaven on Earth for all.

Verity,
~emme

Salvation/Wedding

Dearest Kulvara,

Hello again :/

Can we find salvation, Kulvara? Can each and every single life form within this vast world be 'saved'? What are we exactly saving ourselves from, Kulvara? From this torrid business of living and dying and being recycled? From being mere human expressions of whae, Kulvara? Whae does it mean to be 'human'? Hu Man. It means we belong to the species, 'homo'. Whae does dat mean, Kulvara? I so confuse. So we nae Neanderthals or other various species dat come before us. Whae makes us unique, Kulvara? Will another species emerge besides 'homo'? Are 'homo'... is Jesus one as well, Kulvara? Yes, indeed.

Doesnae 'homo' mean 'same.' Same ol', same ol'. I confuse.

Why are we naughty, Kulvara? Why are many tempted by activities that harm others and are violent and cruel? Why is there 'sickness' and 'pestilence'? Why are there are only TWO genders - male and female here.

I have so many questions, Kulvara and I cannae make sense of it all because I am unable to at the moment. Often times I wake up from slumber here and I have a panic attack because I wonder, 'Why am I here? Whae is all this? Why is it lyke this? Who am I? Whae am I doing here?'

That's when I need you to hold me in your arms and tenderly caress me and whisper soothing words to me, because I positively respond to such acts of tenderness and my 'spirit' is buoyed and calm by such.

I worry, Kulvara, because sometimes just for brief moments in my existence am I in synch w/the Universe and I thinke to myself, 'Yes I am on track. I'm figuring things out.' And then an hour or two later I'm again in the throes of despair. :/

Do you lyke the Wedding Tiara in the icon, Kulvara? It's a 'Heal the World' Tiara by Debra Moreland. I'm terrified of the prospect of marriage because I never got married before, Kulvara... in this existence or a previous one. I noes whae it means. I must be a mother to my actual little.

~emme